yesterday joe and i got stoned and watched the fantastic mr. fox at the dollar theatre. i really like that movie. on the way home i decided to spend the night at my parents house. i slept on the couch and my neck hurts and i feel drained.

i had a dream that mike and i were in the shower at my old apartment. there was a huge shower head and we eventually just sat down and he was making fun of me for something and we were both laughing really hard. then we got up and he picked out this funny outfit for me to wear and we went to his parents house because his dad was making pancakes. he went in his room and i was eating with his mom in the living room. he wouldnt' come out of his room. i started to feel awkward. his dad was asking him to come out and his mom was looking at me in the exact look she would always do when he was obviously being a dick. i went in the bathroom and it was much bigger than usual. i started crying. i felt like i had said or done something wrong, i couldn't figure out what it was. his mom knocked on the door and i told her i was just going to take a shower. erika came home and i knew she was in the living room. mike came into the bathroom and said "look ruthie is pregnant so you just need to stop crying and leave and stop crying and stop bugging me" so i started walking home and i kept getting smaller and smaller and when i got to my parents house nobody recognized me.