i don't remember who i was talking to yesterday, someone with an older sister that they don't really see a lot....
garret. he was saying he has an older sister and how she just is barely in his life and i told him 'but i bet she loves you more than anything else ever' and he said 'no i don't think so' and i said 'nobody loves you like your sister can love you' sometimes if i let myself think about it, i love my brothers so much it makes me want to just rip off my own limbs and rip trees out of the ground and gather every happy moment in the entire world and offer it all to them. how could i ever do enough in my whole entire life to show how much i love them.

yesterday we went to the beach and i was SO happy. i like seans car. i like the sun and i like the sand and i like damp towels and i like being barefoot. i like how hard they are trying to convince me to just get a one way ticket. i LOVE. iLOVE.

'i feel like... i feel like something. just something, you know? i feel like something'
'a hundred bucks?'
'i feel like one hundred bucks'
'well you look like a million'
'well then. excellent'