who the fuck cares.

i woke up one hour late for work today. which was cool because i got to sleep for two extra hours. i had been in the most shit mood lately. then on thursday night 3 things happened that made me rethink my bad mood. 1. i finally picked up my car, the white car, from my parents house, and listened to the aladdin soundtrack on tape while driving back home 2. Madison called and made me promise to go to breakfast with him the next morning 3. someone mentioned Azabu.
jay derik and i ordered a bunch of food and then none of us ate any of our rolls until everything was there on the table because we wanted to take in the spread before it was gone. also, the tuesday before that when we made dinner at daniels and sat at the fancy table acting so polite and proper with the loudest crunchiest garlic bread in the world, jay was hilarious.so we ate and went to the 40 and when it closed juliet drove us all packed in one car to penn park because we didnt want to go be loud at my place where it was assumed that sara was sleeping since she had work in the morning. the sprinklers were on and luke knocked over a bottle of vodka off the bridge and into a pond, which may or may not have been my fault. we got sprayed with water, i got really high, and then we left and went back to the apartment. i dont really remember what we did there but i think jay woke sara up and i fell asleep on the carpet in my room because juliet,passed out on my bed.
i woke up at 7 in the morning to Derik, loud, who slept on the hardwood floor in the living room. juliet was in my brothers bed, i had somehow made my way onto my bed, luke was on the floor and jay had obviously been in sara's bed. she couldn't find her keys for work. usually that doesn't happen to her, usually that happens to me. we ate at ricks. i went home and went to sleep. then i had a second breakfast with madison. he is going to break up with his girlfriend because he doesn't like her anymore. which makes perfect sense. he said "i was just gone for a month and i didn't think about her ONCE. like, the only time it hought abotu her it was 'i need to e-mail her or she is going to be pissed'" and i thought about how luke had said that you can tell if you really like someone by when you think about them. like, its easy to think about how much you like or miss someone when you're bored, but if you're actually doing something and still think about them, then probably you like them. so i told madison that. and he said "i know, right" and i'm not going to see him for three months and thats sad.

last night after the show i went to jacob's and ate strawberry shortcake. it was hot at the show and i sat in the front row rubbing ice on my legs. like a creep.

also last night at dinner, and by dinner i mean my family was sharing two plates of french fries and onion rings, my mom said "do you know who died today?" and i said "no" and she said "dj am, he was found dead" and i said "really? thats horrible, how sad" and my mom said "i thought about erika. hopefully she's okay" and i said "yeah. yeah"