story of my life.

"i want to ask you something"
"that sounds serious"
"it's not. well it's not anymore. i know you don't like to talk about... anything"
"okay"
"why did you just cut me out of your life like that?"
"man, well-"
"we were friends before anything. i mean, that was the worst and then all the sudden you just stopped calling me and stopped returning my calls and stopped hanging out with any of us"
"i know. i'm sorry. its what i needed to do at that time though. it turned into something i didn't want it to be and i just had to 100% get out of it."
"and then you started dating mike"
"yes, and then i started dating mike. and by then i was over everything that had happened between you and i and we probably could've been friends again and talked about everything but i didn't want to do anything to make mike feel uncomfortable and i know he preferred that i didn't see you or talk to you anymore, so i didn't."
"i think i am becoming more like you. like i just don't give a fuck about anyone else and can do whatever i want and not care"
"then you aren't like me. i didn't not care about anyone, didn't you hear me? i only cared about mike"
"WHY. why mike?"
"Oh God if only I knew. trust me i would like to understand it more than anyone."
"i mean really though. you don't listen to anyone and you do whatever you want except for when it comes to this punk kid who's just like every other punk kid from around here"
"well, obviously i don't think so. but i know."
"and he could have completely destroyed so many of your friendships"
"i know"
"and you would have let him. you actually did let him but its okay now"
"look. even when i was in love with someone else and there was a million good reasons for it, even then, that didn't matter if mike wanted to see me. i could never say no to him. i have always picked him. so if you think that you or brian or any of my guy friends or anyone i dated,if you thought anyone else ever stood a chance compared to mike, then you were wrong and i'm sorry. i dont know what that means. what do you think that means?"
"fuck."
"i know."
"what about now?"
"what about now what?"
"you know what"
"that was then."
"whats now?"
"uhh, i hope something different"