MADISON IS COMING HOME ON SATURDAY FOR FOUR DAYS.
thank GOD.

i am confident that this does not mean i secretly love arthur.

last night i had a dream and felt so confused when i woke up. we were at some sort of .... function. social function. with loads of people. like a village of people. and i knew some of them, most of them. a lot of them were random faces that looked familiar, a lot of them were random faces that didnt look familiar. there was plenty going on. we were all going about our business, making plans, talking, etc. i drove around in a golf cart with erika, which seemed similar to driving around on the atv in that village on the greek island santorini. anyway. then sort of for some reason everyone was on one side of the water in seats like the seats that are in times square just seats in the middle of an area facing a part of the area where not really anything is going on but there must be something slightly interesting or pleasant to be facing. and then arthur was there and i dont know if that happened suddenly or was expected or whatever but he was electric. he had blue electricity like dr manhattan but he wasnt all blue and just some blue sparks and wavelengths and static were floating around his body and shooting out his fingers and he was taller because the blue haze was also shooting out from under his feet. i was going to walk by him, wait i think he also had some sort of posse with him... yeah i think, maybe. they are not important but i think they were there. anyway so i'm walking by him and then it felt like we were in some sort of big store, like a walmart or a target superstore and thats not important for the story either but we were walking around in this big store which then was like a market and was like the market at the lowest level of the mall in berlin across from rathaus neokulln. and i dont think he was electric then. and then allt he sudden we were just outside again in the same setting on one side of the water and i was walking by him to walk to the other side of the water where everyone had the chairs facing arthur's side of the water. then i dont know why but i felt scared. because he was all blue and hazy and charged. so then he grabbed my arm and i felt charged as well. i felt the electricty all around me and in my body. and then i kissed him on the lips. and then i stopped and was going to turn off my electricity and walk away and go back to the others in their seats, i think i felt embaressed, or just... i dont know i felt like it wasnt a big deal and that kissing him was just a random act and that it was odd we were both electrically charged and in front of everyone. it felt like maybe an unintentionally very public good bye kiss. and then he grabbed my shoulder and said 'christin. if you leave now and you dont kiss me again then thats it and you felt that' and i looked at him and wanted to turn back around but i had felt it too and knew we were both powerful and staticy and were shooting out electricty and when we kissed it was the sparks from both of us creating this crazy intense connection that just melted our lips and our faces and the rest of our body's that were touching into one. the crowd was silent. i jumped up i had to jump up because he was still growing and getting taller and looking less like arthur and more like everyone i had ever know so i jumped up and held him with both arms and kissed him and kissed him and we were having the most satisfying kiss i had ever felt and the crowd was making noise and i felt that i had done my job in making my decision known to the crowd and that now i just wanted us to be kissing and i pushed him into the doorway which had appeared and it was darkish inside except we were both glowing blue with sparks shooting off our heads and elbows and arms and feet and he set me on a table and said he would love me and make me feel the best i had ever felt, that i was about to be completely satisfied. and we kissed and then the light from around the doorway started to get brighter and i went back to the seats where my mom said something about "oh didnt you like him before. that went well. and didnt he like someone else... yeah its just a cycle it doesnt even matter' and was saying this like so the excited crowd who was in an uproar over the kiss would be less... excited. and a woman who i had just met the night before at my cousins party (in real life) and hardly knew grabbed my hand and said "your mother doesnt know what shes talking about" and i said thank you and then i thought i could drop everything and we could stare at each other, me and the electric arthur who i had kissed. then i thought but i should keep my plans, this can be normal and amazing. i will still go hang out with erika later. and clean my room. and after i will go across the street to arthur's house, because arthurs house was andy's house. and later when arthur came over to see if i was still going to his house, i said 'yes i'm just cleaning but i will be there soon lets do this right' and i smiled and he smiled and we believed each other and he went home to wait for me and i woke up.

i am going to go try and trick someone into thinking i'm much cooler/more stylish than i actually am. and hopefully, i will get a job out of this.



at my current job, i asked the kids to pick a good scientist name out for me and we would vote on them later.
their suggestions were:
dr. dog
prof. ice cream
dr. i dont know

and

"what about dr poop?!"
"theres no way i'm going to be dr poop."
"hahahaha WHAT ABOUT DR DIGESTION?!"
"seriously?"
"HAHAHAHHA yes"
"you're weird. no"


so my name is dr i dont know. i really hoped that i would get dr dog. maybe next time.

i only ever look like shane, with a wig on.