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trying to order clothing online sucks. i mean, how are you supposed to know how it will fit. i don't have time to return shit. i'm leaving soon. i know my measurements, but....that does not make this easier.

WORK
A LOT.

last night i went to a 16th birthday party at a bowling alley. everyone kept trying to give me bowling tips. at one point i heard one of their grandmas say "i just have to help the poor girl out"



i wonder if people think i'm normal.
i am awkward. at least i think so. i dont think everyone else can tell, but the whole time, in my head, i'm awkward.



i just feel like making cat noises and squinting.

i
just don't even know how to say all that i want to say.
19 days.


if you know me and you know how when i'm really happy i bounce up and down in my seat and open and close my hands and smile until my eyes water,
then you know how i look right now.

i just yelled at someone from expedia on the phone. and when they put me on hold i started laughing uncontrollably.


right now i am $550.00 short, at least, of what i thought i would have. it sucks, but i've learned not to .... let certain people... become involved in my life... financially.

"don't mix money honey" as the korean woman who did my nails said.





i want to say this too. okay,

no i'm not going to say it yet.

'okay, i'm not judging you right now, because i know your hormones are all crazy, but


you are being such a bitch'

'hahahaha, i'm sorry. oh no, i'm really sorry...'

'like seriously, you've been nothing but a bitch all day, just pure picking arguements and disagreeing with everything i say'

'hahahahahahahah'




i think thats what its gonna be like to be old. like, when you're on your period, its basically a free pass to be a bitch and cry and complain. i feel like its the same when you're old. but better. because, you can take your teeth out and poop your pants with little reprecussions.